last night i was at a party…..i was there pretty early, so i called i friend to come with me….she came and we were having fun….then she asked me if i could hold her cigarrets…i said yes….but then i began to smoke…thats  like…sick! i felt bad about myself, guilty actually…so i began drinking… i was feeling kind of ok. then my friend asked me to go with her and a couple of friends to buy more alcohol. we were in the car, and everything was fine, untill they mentioned that there was pizza at the party…. i have food issues…. i started to feel nauseous just by the thought of food….i didnt want to eat anything!! so when we got back to the party, they all began eating and stuff..they forced me to have a slice… my friend followed me and saw everything…she sat down next to me……just sat….and she hugged me….im new at my school…again…and i have a lot of friends now…but i am scared that, since she is very popular she wont keep my secret…if more people find out..i dont think i can bare another year of humiliation….