I haven’t posted on or visited this blog or this website in about two years.
I stopped injuring on a regulara basis about two years ago, and stopped attending meetings about a year and a half ago.
A lot has changed since then. I’ve had my slip ups, about two of them. But I don’t count them for anything. I don’t even really count days anymore, because self injury as a whole has become less and less of a problem in my life that I need to worry about.
I have helped countless people get through a minute, hour, day of their life, and I’m proud to say I have survived. I know what I am capable of, and I know what I want out of this life that I was given. Because truthfully, we are all given life for a reason, and we all serve a purpose here. That is promised to us the day we are born. The reason we are supposed to live and thrive on this earth is not predetermined in any kind of ‘plan’…it’s not to be determined by anyone except ourselves.
I’ve tried several times to find myself in things that I thought filled the many voids that I’ve carried with me throughout life. But I’ve come to find that instead of finding yourself, it’s really much easier to create yourself. Who you are is not going to just be handed to you. The person you become is the product of where you have already been, and the future is in your hands. Your life is what you make it, and we all have the capability to do absolutely anything in life. That includes recovering and getting better. We are strong, beautiful, amazing and worthwhile beings. Yes, that means YOU!
I tell this to others who I find struggling all the time. You are worth it. You can accomplish anything. If I can do it, you can do it. We are never handed more than we can handle. You have all the power in the world to be the next success story. Stop at nothing to better yourself, to recover yourself, to become your own best friend. Because only you can save yourself.
All the love in the world to each of you who is out there, and remember that you are not alone. Everything I’ve said above is true. Cause if I didn’t believe that each of us here were capable of recovery, I wouldn’t be here right now showing you just how capable you are.
“You can always be a better person today than you were yesterday.”