I really just wish I didn’t have to face the world at this point. I’m tired of dealing with it. I want there to be a way for me to dig a hole in the ground and disappear from the universe and not have to deal with life. I can’t seem to get it right, no matter how hard I try, I screw things up. And now that I’m “in the real world,” the mistakes I make have enormous consequences. In five minutes, I’m in over my head with no way to dig myself out. I really wish I would have figured out a way to cope with everything before everything got this bad…