ive been SI for about a year and a half. ive tried to stop many times, but every time i try i feel worse, instead of feeling good about myself. i got help. im seeing a therapyst every wedneday, but i HATE her. she doesnt even knows im depressed. i dont have the confidence to tell her. my parents dont know i SI. i told a friend once, but it only made things worse, since it turned out she wasnt my friend. one day she got mad at me and told everyone in our grade. i had to transfer schools because people kept saying bad things to me. i hadnt thought about doing it since 7th grade, but now i often do. i hate my sister. thats another problem, because my parents think i shes a saint. my brother is the best thing that could have happend to me, but when i decided to tell him i SI he stopped talking to me. so now i wonder if life is really worth the pain im going through. i mean i know it is probably less pain than most of the people who go on this website, but it is enough to make me wonder who would miss me…my family wont, of that im sure. im alone at the moment, since there is nobody i can trust not to judge me. i hate this feeling.
You are never alone. And I am always here for you to talk. Even if you just want to chat to get your mind off things. You can trust me. I knowing may take awhile to build up that trust, but no matter what, I am here for you. I won’t tell anyone the things you decide to share with people. I wouldn’t want someone to do it to me, so I won’t do it to you.
I am more than sure people will miss you if one day you were gone. We just met, and I would miss you very much. I am sure your parents would miss you. They may not show it now, but they would probably be devistated. I don’t know them personally, but maybe they just don’t know how to help you. Maybe that’s why they don’t show you the love and support that you want from them. I know that was the case with my mom. My therapist told her how to help me and we’ve become pretty close. So maybe you can show your parents how they can help you.
I know pepole would miss me.thank you. I really apreciate it. My parent dont know…..AT ALL….not a thing. They dont even know i am depressed. I dont even know i want their help anymore
I would thing they should know…..but they act indifferent! The school forces me to go to a therapyst….but my parents never asked why, they didnt even show up to the metteing when the principal explained why that i had to go…..my brother did go though….and hes the one who disves me to therapy….but we dont speak to eachother anymore….not since he found out about my SI….
I dont trust teachers….i had to change schools last minute because people bullied me and yes most teacher knew about my SI, because my principal told them….she told them to pity me!! Thats the ast thing i want people to do! And then there was my english teacher, she was different,she helped me, she listened to me and she was very supportive….she recently passed… She had a heart attack. I have an aunt i tell everything to…but im not allowed to talk to her beacuse my dad is very jelous and says that if i dont tell him everything i tell her, i cant tell anyone….my brother cries too….ive heard him do it several times….and i. Know its not fair to him that i self harm, since he is the one that now has to be careful all the time (he had a skii accident last year and now has to live carefully..) but i dont know what to do about it