It’s been over a year since I’ve been on here. I have stopped self harming, but still face triggers everyday. I have thought about self harming so many times. But everytime I think about it, I think of how much better my life is. How much happier I am. I got my life back. I am posting this to let everyone know; recovery IS possible. It will be hard, you may even fail at first. I know I did. but the most important thing you can do is NEVER give up. If you fall, get right back up. Do not quit, no matter how hard it gets. Life is too short to live in the dark. You should live your life to the fullest.
So, How did I do it? Well, first off, I couldn’t have done it without the support of my friends. They helped me sooo much. They really wanted me to get better. Second of all, I found an outlet for my feelings. When I felt like I needed to harm myself, I went outside, grabbed a branch or some piece of wood, and a sharp object that I would usually self harm with and just used it on the wood. I also found an outlet in poetry. Writing poetry got out all my feelings without anyone having to know, unless I wanted them to know. Also, my friends. People I trust. Teachers, friends, counselors, bus drivers, anyone you can trust. Go to them and just talk to them. Say what you need to. get anything off your chest that you’ve been hiding.
Just know that recovery IS possible. I am now living my life to the fullest. I definately do not regret starting my self harm. It has made me a stronger, happier person today. I have made new friends, and also learned who my real friends are. Those people who might bully you, they just don’t understand what you’re going through. So do not let them get to you. That is what they want from you. If you don’t give them what they want, they will probably leave you alone. (not in all cases though) I have learned from my addiction. I hope you will too.
<3 – Jessica
by the way, if anyone ever needs support, or just needs to talk, I am available.