So, it has been two and a half years since I stopped SI…ing. At this point of my life, I consider it a thing of the past. Something I’ve moved on from. Something that will no longer haunt me. But that is not entirely correct.
This weekend, I decided to travel and visit some friends of mine. We had a great time; however, at one point, my whole brain just shut down. My depression grabbed a hold of me, and thoughts began racing in my mind. I didn’t SI, but it just took me off guard that, even after all this time, I would consider doing it again.
To all those who have gone some time and find it hard, do not give up hope. It is difficult, and there will be times when you feel as if you can not continue without it, but if you believe in yourself, you can work through it. And remember what they say – “The best things in life are the most difficult to complete.”
Thank you for what you said,i have been S.I.for a long time on and off i need to quit giving in to the strong urges how do ya do that? Thanks again I’m very proud of you!
There is no easy way to do it. You just have to tough it out sometimes. Sometimes, you have to distract yourself.
I know some days are going to be awful, so I walk in and grit my teeth and hope to make it out on the other end unscathed. I’d rather work through a terrible day then do something I know I’m going to hate myself for later.
I’m having such a hard time right now I’ve been S.I. On and off for 2 days , I’ve been doing this for many yrs and feel I will never stop I’m 50 now sometimes I feel like I’m going insane I see a phys and thearapist and still can’t stop!