It’s been a month offically. Two days ago, I thought I would be happy, and proud, and everything else I expected to feel. But I’m not. I’m down, I need it. I have been S.I for 3 years, then one day I just stopped. I still think about it every single second of every single day. I want to do it so badly, but I know I can’t. I’m so scared that I will though. I keep a rubber band around my wrist at all times, but it doesn’t help at all. Is there anything else I can try?
Is there anything else you feel like doing? Running, dancing, lifting weights? Writing? Watching a movie? One of my favorite emergency measures is to take a piece of heavy rubber hose and hit it on the cement floor as hard as I can… it makes a BIG noise. Lifting weights until my muscles ache seems to help too… it sort of hurts, but it’s not harmful. I have also beat up the couch on occasion. Ideally, you would find something that not only lessens the urge, but makes you feel better about yourself too.
try squeezing ice in you hand, it sort of hurts, but it releases the same soothing chemicals as S.I does, but its not dangerous:) helps me al the time
thank you both so much! I will try everything you both suggested. I really appriciate you guys taking time out of your day to help me!