These last few 4 days I’ve turned to SI and i’m not sure how to stand back on my two feet again. I ended up receiving an email from the counselor at school.. it’s weird i graduated in June why does she care still she no longer has an obligation to me. The email was about how that counseling place she referred me to( the one I’ve been petrified to go to) called her saying they tried calling me and left a message but i haven’t contacted them (not true) but now she wants me to call them. I have mixed feelings and thoughts going on in my head. I don’t think i can do this. This urge to SI is happening again i wish i never had the urges.