While I have been trying substitutions that my therapist has suggested to me instead of SI yesterday I felt and overwhelming urge to use a tool instead. Previously, I have been injuring without a tool, so this new urge is a big step for me. I just hurt so badly, that I thought I would crack if I didnt let the pain out. I’m not sure if I should tell my therapist or what. I didnt look at it as hurting myself and that is what disturbs me. I would really appreciate any suggestions/help.