Maybe I’m wrong, maybe it’s just wishful thinking. Maybe I’ll be back at it again before too long. But more and more lately, I’ve been feeling like SI is a shoe that just doesn’t fit anymore… it’s not fulfilling, it’s not what I want to do anymore. I get my bad days, when I really feel like I want to do it, but I know inside that I don’t want to. I don’t want to go back to that insanity. I don’t want to go back to that confusion, that place where I can’t tell what’s true and what’s a lie. I want to keep my head above water. Thank you God for giving me a friend who motivates me to care enough to fight. It’s going to be 5 weeks tomorrow and I’m not just holding out, I’m growing and changing and hopefully, leaving this thing behind at last!