I tired so hard not to SI, I couldn’t help the urge. I was trying to stop and yet, i fell back to its temptation. Due to a current problem I was too upset to think straight and unfortunately i found my self SI.ing. When I had finally realized what I had done I broke down crying and looking at myself. I felt weak and upset. I had no idea what to do so i just got up and began to blast rock music. I hoped that it would distract me, and hopefully it did and in one song i found the strength to continue to fight the urge to stop S.I.ing. I just hopr that i can stay away from every S.I.ing again.
Feel the exact same way after being free from SI for 3 weeks today I found myself back to the same cycle.
Stopping SI is something that takes years to do, and sometimes, you will have relapses where you find yourself doing it again. It’s ok. Each week is a brand new battle, and the more you fight, the more you will find yourself winning the battle again and again.