I need someone to understand, i don’t need a friend telling me ” your stupid ” or ” you’re being dumb” or the famous saying ” just stop.” I started to bottle up my feelings because i felt like my feelings were stupid and then today to have me open up to my friend and for her to tell me i’m being dumb makes me want to never say a thing to any one again. My thoughts are stupid my feelings are stupid so does this just make me stupid? I haven’t SIed in almost 3 weeks as of right now it has been 2 weeks and 6 days and it’s starting to get really hard to say that because i really want to SI so badly. Maybe the best thing for me to do is to not talk about how i feel and just pretend i’m this awesome person. I feel like i have no one here to relate to here as in where i live, my friends and just those i talk to. I feel like soon i’m gonna screw up again and i don’t know what to do. Is it crazy to say that i feel like i miss it ?? Almost 3 weeks and i don’t know how much longer i can last. I just feel like a burden.