I have no memory of the last blog I wrote. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I keep waking up not myself. I woke up this evening sad. Like crying uncontrollablly. I miss my grandma. I keep waking up from these strange dreams, or full of anxiety, or mad. Anyone else ever have this happen ? :/ I don’t know how I’m getting to work in the morning. I hate having car issues. Tampa has a terrible publlic transportation system. I feel so…? I don’t know a word. Shaking and crying and hopeless. What’s wrong with me??? I talked to my mom tonight. It was nice. I always want to be with my mom when I don’t feel good. How ironic. I hope everyone is having a happy holiday weekend. Happy 4th of July.
Hi barista.steph
I know that one of the “triggers” of my depression was always dreams. Even if I couldn’t remember the dreams I had, I would wake up just knowing that the day was going to be a rough one.
The only advice I would have on this is to not allow yourself to feel worse just because you feel bad. My depression was always worse because I remember feeling bad, and not understanding why, so I would feel even worse. Also, I would find one thing to do that day that you know would make you feel good. For me, that was usually playing a round of golf, or writing, or watching my favorite TV show. There is nothing that can be done to stop you from feeling bad about a dream you have, but a day doesn’t necessarily have to go to waste. Who knows – sometimes, you’ll end up feeling better about yourself, and not knowing you’re doing it.