Last night, i was reading some stuff about SI bcuz of a book my mother got me. nd my (3rd) step daddie came up nd started asking me all these questions about why i was looking it up. nd i just got so annoyed nd just absolutly screamed ” BECUZ IVE SI’D!” at him. nd he got ticked off at me nd i almost SIed. It really scared me tht i wanted to sooo bad. and we have to get rid of my cat nd my stepdaddie totally hurt her the other day nd im just really stressed. I almost SIed nd ive been clean of it for 2 weeks. it just really freaked me out.