ok so its bee 181 days since i last SI but each day i feel lie im slowly slipping away. one day iactually found myself breaking dow and almost gave in to the temptation. everytimei try to tell someone i get scared and feel like if i tell them ill end up in a bad place or no one will listen or care. how do i get over this urge to SI and talk out m feelings instead of bodeling them up???
Im probably not helping at all but, i SI, but ive been trying to stop. when i do stop, i feel ike im losing something. Like part of myself or like im losing some contest against myself. when i want to SI, i try to not give in but sometimes my feelings are overwhelming. but lately, ive been thinking about how i feel nd then i can start to talk. and then after i just get the “i want to SI” or “im sad” then how i feel starts flowing out nd i can talk. I go to councling nd i cant tell my councler any of my SI feelings or urges becaus im terrified that shell tell my parents or send me to a mental hospital or somehting. so, i get how u feel. sorry if this doesnt help at all..
no that totally helps but dont be afraid of going to a mental hospital because i went and at first i hated it but when i realized that i was there to get better and my mom sent me there to help me, it wasnt so bad…remember you cant conquer everything on your own…sometimes you need alittle help and its always ok to ask for help when you need it.