I began S.Iing myself in the sixth grade. I never truly understood why. All I knew was that every time I did, it felt good. As the years went by, Many changes in life led me to believe that I was alone in the world. I never quite understood why. I always had people thre to tell that things would be alright that they would help me through it,yet it never felt like they were there at all. I knew that they had no idea about what I was suffering. I knew that there was no way of telling them to get lost. I knew they had the best interest at heart but they did not help at all. In the end I always found S.Iing my self a comfort and a way of coping. I know that its wrong but I find no other way of coping with all my anger and pain other than S.Iing myself. So how else do i cope with my feeling alone?
I know this is really, really hard to do but the best way to cope with feeling alone is talking to someone about it. I stuggle with feeling alone A LOT. My parents have always been there for me but not having any siblings left me feeling alone and I blamed them for not having other children wondering why they wanted me to grow up alone. Anyway, some other ways to cope is when your feeling alone ask a friend or someone you can talk to if you could hang out or call someone on the phone. Reach out to someone. If there is no one around to reach out to find something you enjoy doing..listen to music,watch t.v. or go online and find someone to socialize with. I don’t know if you believe but talk to God. He always listens even when we feel like He doesn’t. I know from experience S.I. yourself only takes the pain away for a very short amount of time and then it all comes back and its not worth it. Talk to someone, someone you trust. Make some new friends and go live a little. Take chances. Things will be okay.