So finnally after after all the fighting I have done, and the tears, and scars. I have reached a point that life is tolerable, even enjoyable. I never thought that I would get past wishing my life would end, but I am. Best of all this has lasted for some time for me, not just a few days, so I don’t have to worry that its just a cycle. I have worked really hard in therapy and talked to my therapist about some parts of me I had never exposed that were really dark and painful, and I’m not only glad I did, but I must say I’m proud but i know i still have a lot of work to do