I feel SO uncomfortable in my own skin today. I do most days, but today I weighed myself. I am so dissapointed in my lack of commitment to working out and eating well. I want to do so many self destructive things right now. I wrote on here last night that I’m not giving up on getting better but today feels a little bit impossible. I was so proud of myself for loosing so much weight and here I am 6 months later, god knows how many pounds later, back where I was. I’m completely disgusted with myself. I keep telling myself, if I self injure it will not help me loose weight, it wont do anything really. The only purpose it would serve would be to punish myself by pain and by making me uglier. I am running on empty today and I need help. I am going to call a friend.