well, i’ve been thinking about it alot lately. the main reason is, is that its been so long, that my scars are fading. it’s been 2 and a half months. that scares me. but it would probably b easier for me if i still had scars…i’m not sure why. i’ve just beein thinking alot about Si-ing because if  i had the scars to look it, it would make not doing it easier…but if i do i’m affraid it would be worse then usual…i’ve always been careful not to do that to badly so that i wouldnt have scars for too long…but now i wish i had…i’m sorry i dont know what to say. so does anyone else feel like this?