Today I watched the movie Black Swan and I couldn’t help but to feel like Nina…. I can’t even describe why I felt like her.. I don’t do ballet anymore, I’m not skinny, I don’t don’t have that much pressure on me and I don’t do ANY of the things she does!!! actually I don’t feel like her at all…
I just….felt like I could feel her pain.. the need of being perfect.
well, actually saying I feel like a black swan is wrong… I feel like the little ugly duckling…

I think I’m rambling too much now.. I probably don’t even make sense…as always..
I can’t even explain what I’m feeling.. I don’t know what I’m feeling…..so how can you….?