i finished reading a book the other day. i didnt mention it would be about si. well the sister self injures. im not saying i wouldnt read the book if ii knew earlier. but it got me really mad. i hate that it makes her look so needy. it made her look soo…idk blah. she made me mad. she made me hate myself that i si. there was actually a line that says ‘i sied so you would notice me more han willow.’ idk why this made me mad. it just showed siers as such weak people. it made up look needy and idk…dumb? thats not the rght word. the book made siers look like the typical sterotype and thats not who i am. or we for the most part.
ive been having issues with food. i want to talk to my best friend. but shes pregnant and i dont want to stress her out more. food has become my worst enemy. i cant kkeep doing this. but i cant not. i feel disgusting after every meal. idk. im falling apart with a smile plastered in place.
I feel like I need to comment on your blog,just a gut feeling but I’m not even sure what to say. I feel the same way after eating and the same way about how the media portrays the “typical self-injurer”. It irritates me too. I guess I just wanted you to know you aren’t alone and we can make it through.I recently read Portia De Rossi’s memoir “unbearable lightness” about her struggling with eating disorders and extremely low self-esteem issues…it’s very inspiring and I’d totally recommend it.I’m fairly certian there isn’t anything SI triggering in it. It’s a good read and a good inspiration to heal.
p.s. it’s ok to not smile if you don’t feel like smiling 🙂
best wishes to you!
Thank you. I was going to coment on your post from eariler too. I could totally relate to that. Good luck to you too. And thank you for understanding =)
Oh and I just bought that book last week its next in line for me to read it.