the days have so quickly passed…it started with 124 days and now down to only 27…

my boyfriend has been there for me for every single thing in my life we’ve been together since freshman year of high-school…5 years…and in 27 days everything will change…i wont get to see him except on rare occasions…he’s going into the navy its such a huge change for both of us and instead of trying to make the most of the days left we keep fighting cuz it is so hard on both of us…all 4 years of high-school we’d see each other at least 5 days a week then this past year we saw each other at most twice a week or once every other week…i thought that stunk…but now 2 months without talking and probably 4 or 5 months till i can see him again…

i run to him for everything and he has always been there to help me and make sure i dont SI…he told me i had to go to counseling when he leaves so he knows im safe but i hate it…i really dont like talking….i hate it more than anything…now i dont know what to do with him being gone and not being able to see him i just feel lost already…and the fighting isnt good its both our fault we know it but we are both pretty stubborn and it just is so hard that we cant just spend the next 3 weeks happy and maybe actually see him

what am i gonna do without him here to help me…i am losing my support 🙁