well, um, i’ve SIed for almost 6years now. i never talk about it, so this is really weird. i actually told my boyfriend, which i NEVER talk about it to anyone. but after 6 wonderful months with him, he says that (even though i’m trying to quit) i’m too sad and he can’t help me, because when i’m sad, it makes him upset, even though he constantly gets upset because i dont talk to him about anything. but u know what? i never tell people when i’m upset, and i tell him, that has to mean something. i’m working hard at telling him what i think about all of this. i’m not good with feelings, but he’s been ok with that, he’s just trying to deal with it. but he told me that he is not strong enough to handle me, and all of my problems, and how i’m sad and upset all of the time…and he broke up with me…but he wants to be friends, which is good, but he was the only person i ever talked to, and now i can’t talk to him about it anymore, because it upsets him. i want him back sooo badly, he’s all i want. i have no idea what to do now, i’m very lost, and it just makes me want to…SI even more. (i like saying SI because i hate saying it anyways, i use a symbol, but anyways) yea, so i’ve never been the type to EVER cry. i’ve always been strong enough not to, like at all. but now that he’s gone…i mean, he meant everything to me…and he’s gone, and i dont know what to do now…sooo…..i dont know. i really want to, but, it’s nothing compared to wanting him back. i just need something…anything…i’m strong, but…not strong enough without him i guess, since i’ve cried my eyes out for the first time in years, about something so stupid as a boy. sooooo….what now….? Get him back somehow? that’s what is on my mind, but i dont feel like i’m emotionally capable to speak to people, let alone get my boyfriend back….does he even want me back? my best friend said that he probably broke up with me because he felt like he couldnt help me, so he broke up with me so i could find someone that could….but honestly i dont think anyone can…but he helped some…