I hadn’t SI’d for a couple weeks in till today. I lost it. I haven’t seemed to cry for a couple weeks either. I think that’s why. Crying seems to help me clear my head and I didn’t want people to see me so unhappy. So I put on a smile and didn’t do anything. Today I couldn’t hold it in anymore.

A couple weeks ago my parents kind of figured out I was depressed. I’m going to maybe start going to therapy soon. Is it true that if you’re under 18 the counselor can tell a parent if you’re SIing? If so I don’t know what I’ll do. I can’t tell anyone because I don’t know how to get it out. How do I start the conversation? Will they treat me the same?

It’s all too hard.