I should feel better with my psychological tratment, but I’ve realised that the more I talk about my problem, the bigger it is because when I know that someone is worried about me I want to caught her attention anyway and that way is SI. I think it works one or two times, but by the fourth time they loose every expectative and you have to ask for more help, then you meat another theraphist and is circle that becomes another addiction. I know that the real problem with me is that I want to change the past so I would be happier.