i am such a jealous person, i know most people think it is a horrible trait but i cant help it. my boyfriend is leaving in about a month and a half for the navy. he has been there for me for the past 4 and a half almost 5 years and i am so scared of how it is going to be without him. his best friends fiance is over in iraq and the other night he went over to comfort her cuz he is one of those guys you can just cry to and he will always make you better. and i am so jealous, not because she is his ex but because he gets to be there for her while she misses her fiance and i dont get him when i need him most when he is gone. i am really jealous and it makes me feel guilty because it isnt something that important to get jealous of when i feel guilty i always want to injure and when he is gone i am worried to injure more especially when i feel jealous over something or get upset over something and he wont be there for me to talk to…

blehhhh….i hate feeling jealous but i hate having the guilt even more without being able to make it go away…

p.s. to everyone, i am sorry that i dont use punctuation and proper spelling and all i know it bothers some people so i’m sorry