I haven’t injured in almost a year. That changed last night. I feel like everything is falling apart and those I love can’t find it in themselves to love me back. My parents are garbage, my real friends are not at this stupid university and my love of almost 6 years has become a new person. Increasingly more violent, apathetic, and gone for days at a time. My biggest fear is that he’s fallen out of love with me. Just the thought crushes me. He was my rock and now he’s my quick sand, taking me under with him. Most would say walk away. But I can’t, he needs me. It’s just so hard because I need him, the real him and he’s nowhere to be found. When he comes back he’ll be so disappointed. I promised him I wouldn’t injure anymore. That promise has been broken, along with my heart. I wish this pain would just go away.