Everything was going so well… & it’s completely fallen apart again. I lost the one person that mattered most, that helped me get through this. The one who helped me manage my crazy. And now, just like that… Gone. Poof. I feel like the floor’s fallen out from under me. I can’t breathe. My stomach is churning, & I don’t think I’ll be able to handle this. Not tonight. I can’t… I’ve got butterflies dotting me, but that won’t be enough. Not tonight. I need help, I need hope. I need someone to save me from myself. I need my best friend. I miss you, Matty. I’m so sorry…