I feel like all I want to do anymore is lay in my bed and SI. Just lay there and be in the pain that it brings, as well as the pain that I let out. Sometime I want nothing more but to scream out to someone about what’s going on with me. I want someone to notice. But at the same time, the idea of someone else finding out gives me an anxiety attack. I feel like that would just make me want to Si even more. Honestly my addiction to this is taking over my life. I’m not ready to get through this, but I want to let it go. I had my emotions. I think I’m done.