I have been self harming for quite a long time now. I try not to do it. I lose that battle more often than naught. In my childhood I suffored from sexual, physical and emotional abuse. Being it was the only thing I understood I got into a relationship, got married and endured an additional 15yrs of physical and emotional abuse. I finally broke free for my own safety in 2009 and have got divorced yet it feels like i am perminately damaged now. I don’t leave my home but very rarely, for release I find myself self-harming. I don’t trust people anymore. In fact it was just last week that I had harmed myself and am feeling more into doing it aghain after my ex and her sister tore into me two days ago and again today. Sincerely scared and alone.