I’m happy that I have gone 68 days with out si ing, but I was thinking. it feels like im  climbing a mountain, what happens when i get to the top? were is the top? I cant stay up there forever can i… when you get to the top of a mountain what do you do.. you just turn around and go back down. so whats the point… is there no point in being si free?  i haven’t been sleeping right cuase ive been thinking about this for a while…