Im trying soo hard to stop si-ing, but everything else has a habit of getting in the way. Im at the point where idk if my sister is right maybe i should tell my family. Though my sis thinks im a self-absorbed lil brat who cant handle my problems. She doesnt think i will be able to quit so im trying to prove her wrong. the only thing is life seems to get in my way of stopping si. I will have a good day and not si and then something come along,and I will SI again. My family tells me im not good enough…it hurts, but instead of crying i si. My family tells me my problems are lil that i shouldnt cry. I bet they would prefer crying to si.
I have only been doing it so that maybe i can feel something. The si takes away the emotional pain i feel.
It hurts when im told “ur fat”, “ur stupid”, “ur ignorant”…those among other thins hurt…i try not to let it bother me but it just does.
i wish i could quit si-ing…i would hate it if my “friends” or family found out…if they did who knows wat they’d say…
Cause they already have told me before that hurting urself is stupid…but they dont realize how much their words. hurt…
i wish i cld quit si-ing…im tired of hiding the scars and the tools….
to everyone else i look happy and no one would suspect the si or be willing to see that im realling hurting inside..i just wish i cld quit the lie and really stop si-ing…i keep telling myself i will stop but idk wat else to do or how to stop…i really wanna quit si…and ikeep telling myself i will, and i wish i could but im not sure i can…i wish i cld fight this urge…
well sorry yall for rambling and any advice would be greatly appreciated