Do you ever feel like you can’t trust your own feelings,your own thoughts ? I made a super impulsive stupid decision last night, out of the blue, thankfully it was something I could fix pretty easily. Last night it felt totally ok and right and like a good life decision but this morning I woke up and it was a bad choice. This is absolutely not the first time I’ve acted on impulse to such a big decision, but it just feels like it wasn’t even me. I can never trust my feelings. Or people’s feelings towards me. Just throwing that question out to everyone…

p.s. 10 days sober today, 4 more days and I will have been sober for the longest time since last summer.

p.s.s. in the past sober 10 days I have only self-injured once and it was over real sober hurt feelings, not in a substance abused impulsive fog like it is a lot of the time. 10 days sober and only one self inflicted injury. That’s pretty good for me.