I feel so horrible. It has been a feww weeks now since my last self injury. And im having very strong urges right now. Im trying to distract myself laying down keeping my hands busy. Thinking about my friends keeping busy making friendship bracelets. I know by the time somebody reads this post i will have already self injured. I hate this feeling i have and how its growing out of control the longer i wait and the harder i try to stop it. What is wrong with me