Everything hurts so much, the absense of any touch.

My autistic son his little sister aswel, a new baby, my tummy does swell.

I am scared I am lonely, I don’t think he hears. I sit alone, with only my tears.

I tried & I tested until he was to far to reach, now he doubts every word that I speak.

I have an old friend who releases my pain, I don’t want to visit that friend again.

I know if I start I will not stop, start at the bottom & finish at the top.

My body my scars, I feel so ashamed, I wish that I could manage my pain.