I feel fat all the time now. I look in the mirror, I feel fat. I sit down, I feel fat. I eat, I feel fat. It makes me want to s.i. again. But I don’t. Everybody always tells me, ” your not fat!” “your super skinny” “your perfect the way you are.” If I hear these things a lot, why can’t I believe it myself? I don’t understand what is wrong with me. I need to do something, but what? I want to restrict again, but I can’t beause then I end up eating my feelings. I go back and forth though. Some days I do want to eat away my feelings, others I want to stop eating so I can feel the pain. I just don’t know what to do anymore
I’m in the same position as you but i have restricted too. I want to SI because all i feel is FAT and gross. Everyone looks at me saying ” you’re skinny” ” you’re crazy if you think you’re fat” but all i see when i look in the mirror is FAT. If i gain weight i think i’m gross. According to my friend when you don’t eat enough it makes things worse and it does i guess because i’m always tired and i always have these headaches. I can’t sleep at night as well as i use to but you have to believe that you’re not fat in order for you to realize it.
im in the same boat..everyone always tells me how thin i am but i never believe them.its so hard tp believe them.. ive been self consious my whole life….
Its so hard to believe it. I have lost 7 pounds in like 2 months. I told my best friend I hadn’t eaten much that day. She told that she was anorexic at one point and said that she didnt want me to end up the way I was before. Then I got scared and thought maybe I am. But I ate an actual meal for dinner. Every single time I gain even a couple ounces I feel disgusting. I want to feel pretty again….I want to feel confident again….I want to feel free to be me. I don’t want to constantly be hating on myself and being all self-concious. This is so hard….