My brother is coming back and im having a hard time dealing with these….he is the reason for my nightmares…the reason i cry at night…the reason that ppl are mad at me…they think i ruined their lives, but its his fault….he hurt me….he made me cry…i thought i was rid of him for good seeing as i live in the southeast and he lives in north central us….but i cant…

Everyone seems to think he is this perfect angel and that he can do no wrong…they dont wanna see all the hurt he has caused me….they also seem to be able to look over his mistakes but never mine…

also i cant believe mom bought him a bus ticket when she wont even help my dad pay for things i need like doctor bills…it all just hurts…and i really wanna si right now….i told myself i wouldnt though but i wanna….urg…..why does life have to be sooooooooooo messed up…i already sied this week i dnt wanna again its just im sad that he is coming back after wat he did to me years ago and me thinking i was finally rid of him