I’m having a good week until today. I feel sad and depressed and stessed out. Last night I drew 7 butterflies where I self injure and named them after my friends and practically cried my heart  out. I’m hoping I injure the butterflies and that they will be a good visual reminder… It sounds stupid I guess that’s how desperate I am o stop injuring myself. I’ll try anything I guess. I never thought my self injury was so bad until reently.. I think I need proper help but I’m too scard to tell family, friends, or adults like a teacher. I just want to keep this my secret forever. I’m so ashamed. I know I’ll have to explain away the scars. And I’m scared. I feel so stressed today I’m afraid I’ll injure.