I have been harming for a long time. ive been in therapy for eight years so far. every idea and attempt on creating a new coping skill or distraction i have either found a way to make it harm me or it doesnt work. My past is one nightmares cant compare to. 41 years old and i still cant deal with it. my harming is getting worse. i cant give details because i understand triggers. All i can say is that i need help soon. i have therapy thursday and yet again ive got to give an even worse report. its so humiliating and i feel like a freak but when your soul hurts so bad feeling like its being ripped apart and your hearts in pieces because of a pain only a harmer knows we feel we only have one choice. i didnt just wake up this way. i dont want to be this way. i want help. im begging for help. i dont want to be the one who takes my breath away and thats where im heading. i call hotlines and emergency er head drs but in our great state of sc my type of harming doesnt qualify. you have to either be suicidal or homicidal. what if im a danger to myself. for intents and purposes thats not what we are aiming for. im desperate and im crying out for help here. tell me theres more to life than this. tell me a therapist knows how to stop it. dont pump me full of drugs because you dont understand me. learn about me. i have a heart feelings and a mind. i have children and a gf. if not for me please dont let them suffer
hey i dnt know how much help i will be but if u wld like feel free to email me at brittany.martin6@gmail.com …a therapist could prolly help u….and there is more to life than this it can get better…i hope it gets better..u can quit si….well if u want u can feel free to email me and i will listen and try to help or watever….i hope that it gets better…and i understand not wanting to be this way so good luck…it can get better
sadly, not all therapists understand how to deal with SI issues. I am sorry that you have found this to be the case where you live. Have you checked out the therapists through this website, that are trained in SI? Not that these are the only counselors equip to deal with what you are going through….have you tried reading some self-help books on SI? I know it is a shot in the dark, but perhaps that can have some alternative options for you. Many many people have gotten through SI and so can you. I am sorry that you have not found the kind of help that works for you, and I am in no way trying to invalidate what you are going through. There is a place in this world for you that does not include all the bad that you are currently feeling. You deserve to have help in finding that. I truly hope that you can. Wish I could send you an answer, but there is no one solution to what you are going through…but there is an answer out there. Try to stay strong and surround yourself with the people that love you until you find the right therapist. It sounds like you are trying hard to find the right help, stay persistent and it will come to you.