It has been over two years since I felt I was completly alone. Two years since I SIed. Why now is it I feel the pull back to what I swore I would never do again. Its so confussing and as everyone knows trying to talk to someone is almost impossible. What makes matters worse is that Im in the Military if they find out Im done they will kick me out and than i dont have a job. Why is it that a 23 yearold combat veteran can’t deal with this. I know that I wont get the Answers I need on here but at least know one is going to judge me for what  I say or write.