This is the first time I’ve tried to find help. Two people know about what I do, but they think I’ve stopped, and they have enough to deal with so I don’t need them worrying about me as well. I just don’t know how to talk to anyone about what I feel, I have never been able to do that, it seems like it could be easier to talk about it to people who’s faces I cannot see. So I am going to try it this way. I put on the fake smile and act as though I am fine, everyday. I’m not sure how much longer I can do that. I am getting tired of living like this, hurting myself just to get through the week. I’ve tried other ways to feel better, running, reading, even as far as using substances once (that made me feel worse along with a giant mystery injury). They obviously haven’t worked. So I just need someone to talk to. Please help me.