i tell myself im not strong enough to stop the si. But i know i need to be strong… i know i am part of bigger picture and its not all about me. I know that no matter what life throws at me there is something greater than any of that …. its the same for you. Dont begin to give up …. there are thousands of people who deal with self abuse and they i have been through it. They all found it in them to stop and now its my turn as well as your always remember God is still in the business of forgiveness its not to late