Well it’s been awhile since my last SI (and by a while i mean like 1.5 years) and yet im still trying to get a grip on things. Im in university and seeing as its my first year things have been exceptionally tough So i started seeing a counselor (after a friendly shove from my best friend) I dont talk to her about SI or anything like that but ive still been finding it helpful to get the little things off my chest so that they dont turn into bigger things. Anyways its been helping for the small stuff but all the big questions like “what are you going to do with the rest of your life” are still looming over my head and so many things keep coming up that i simply dont feel like i have the energy to deal with, and then the other day it hit me…. like a brick wall, i couldnt stop myself from crying and all I could think about was the marks that my past had left behind on my body and my emotions and i havent been able to stop thinking about it since…. i dont know what to do….