I’m new on here. Most of my friends try to be there when I talk to them but none of them know what I’m going through so they just tell me the obvious don’t si. I started self-injuring myself in 2005. up until may of 2010. at first it was an every now and then thing then it turned into a constant thing that I needed just to get through the rest of the day or to fall asleep at night. finally i admitted myself into a treatment center. i have been SI free since may of 2010, however these last two weeks have been the hardest to avoid it. i have so much pain, frustration, anger, lonliness, worthlessness, and every other feeling built up in me that I feel like i’m ready to explode. i need my release. going almost 10 months without doing it is a great success for me considering i had been doing it for 5 years. but i’m about to fall off the wagon. part of me doesn’t really care, but obvisouly a part of me does or i wouldn’t be here trying to seek advice or words of wisdom for other people who use self-injury as a way to deal. i feel like if i fall off the wagon that i will be a failure. please any words of encouragment or advice would be greatly appreciated right now. thanks!