I’m so tired of being numb……so tired of not feeling for the fear of getting hurt is controlling me now. i should be better by now i feel like i should be over all the things that have happened to me it was 2 years ago so why wont these ghosts leave me? why cant i stand to look at my little girl? is it cause she is that constant reminder of it…? i cant even stand to look at my self all i see in a mirror is a wast of time….all i think about is SI and when i think about it no one can stop me from doing not even little Rebekkah crying because of it…i just dont care i dont see the point in going on in a world that just screws with you for laughs this life is a joke but….im not laughing… no one is