Woke with a wicked headache again today – the treatment does not seem to be working. Add on to that some changes that mean i cannot see my daddy as much and it was just too much. i was feeling depressed to begin with and just don’t feel able to cope with this added restriction in my life. daddy says just deal with it but i don’t know how to do that so i just shut down. i have read and read and tried to avoid self injury but finally gave in. wish i could say it didn’t make me feel any better but of course, it did.