ive wanted to SI so badly today..i havent yet though..its not like i had a bad day. my grades are all a’s. i have a great boyfriend. very few friends but thats nothing new anyway. nobody has ever really wanted to be my friend anyway..i guess its just the month of march that really upsets me. see when i was 14 my step brother raped me..his birthday is in march. i guess just knowing that his birthday is coming up is really upsetting me. it wouldnt be quite as bad if he hadnt told me it was my fault :/ and to top it all of, i have noone here i can talk to about it..nobody understands. they think im some freak because i cant cope with this. the stress of dealing with the memories is just too much…