Hi…I have a terrific boyfriend. No one knows about him except my best friend. He told me today that he is dying. I have never cyed this much. The pain overtook me and all I coupld do to breathe again was to SI. I gave in. I’m numb now, I like the numbness, it is better then the pain of losing him. I wish I could be with him. I need help. The pain is threatening to overcome me. I can’t afford to SI again. Not only because it is bad, but because I can’t have visible evidence of it. I don’t know what to do :’ (