I made promises to my friends. My closest ones. The ones who are always there for me whenever I need them. I swore I wouldnt do it again. I was clean for months.

Something set me off, I couldnt stand the pain. I couldnt keep crying, I felt so weak. I SI’ed again. I told my friends after, I told them how ashamed I was for letting them down. After I told them I wanted so badly to do it again, I injured just to bring back the pain that took away the emotions.

Why am I so pathetic? They would hate me if they could get into my thoughts.