a week…i’ve been SI free for a freaking WEAK!! Then…vriday, after we lost this school competition, and i was so dissapointed..i felt i didn’t do my best, and that’s why we lost, except…there were 749 other kids in my school that was part of it.. When i found out we lost..i cried, and then i Self Injured when i came home.. I can’t believe i flipped out over something so stupid!! i feel so worthless now..
I want to change who i am.. I don’t want to be the lonely girl, wearing my black jeans, black shirt and dark make-up… I don’t want to hide away my life behind my books. But when i don’t wear black or read my fantisy books… I don’t feel like ”me”.. I want to change who i am, but i have no idea how to that…
Guess i really am a failure..